when you fall off, walk a little. – a week 52 reflection
Hello. I write to you from the other side of December 2025 – specifically, the last Sunday of 2025. Crazy that we are here, and yet, here we are.
Speaking of… I am totally wiped from wedding planning! So, all the best-laid plans about the reading I would do + fitness regimens that I wanted to adopt – all flew out the window. These got replaced by lots and lots of YouTube doomscrolling D: Funnily enough, I did keep to my rule of adding long-form videos to my Watch Later list, and I didn’t remove many of them. So I was able to reflect somewhat on some of the content I consumed – see my Nov-Dec roundup, heh. Interestingly, there are some threads that I may want to pick up on in 2026.
Exhaustion + Short-Form Videos = A shot attention span, which I don’t expect to be healed overnight. Even so, it did feel good to go back to an old habit of looking through my planner… it felt quite grounding.
In a bid to get my bearings, I did update my /now page. But the first draft left me feeling pretty ambivalent… Here are my secondary thoughts:
Would be nice… if I can finish reading How To Do Nothing and Hellbent. HTDN takes a certain focus though, which I am not sure that I have in me right now. A good alternative… Will source for some fiction to read over my holiday. Hehe.
Would be nice… to start a 5km plan. But once again, I don’t know that I’m in the headspace for that. A good alternative… is focusing on hitting 10K steps for this last week of 2025!!
Would be nice… to eat whole foods. But I’m feeling kind of burnt out about worrying about food. I found myself eating to live in December, which worried me slightly. So, a good alternative, would be… to pay attention and take note of the foods that bring joy / feelings of self-care.
The week between Christmas and New Year’s feels pretty liminal. Life keeps getting “interrupted” by public holidays. Plus, I’m adjusting to a new life status, heheh.
So, I think my Q1(?) January(?) plans are what they are. I think it’s good to have a few options on hand, so that I can live a bit more mindfully. But once again, coping mechanisms are what they are. If I end up watching a few more YouTube shorts than I prefer, I’m going to not beat myself up too much about it. But yeah, I think it would just take a bit more attention, cos maybe I’m sending a message to myself about the things that I really want to do.
And, I just want to say, that for all the complaining I do about how tired I am – I’m pleased with how the wedding day turned out. So, I am married now. We are husband and wife. So surreal to type that… and yet, not crazy at all 🙂
N
